Great day today!!!

I had a friend in a situation that spent the night and he gave me a ride to my volunteer session that I will be doing every week through the end of April. It was so cool to be of use to someone and know that people tonight are going to have what they need already prepared.

I went to the gym and had a VERY long and great workout. I think I may have over done it, all I want to do is sleep, so I think I will. Screw if it is only 18:30. I might get up early and get some work done... Right! ;-)

Not sure what happened to the rain we were supposed to get today, but I had an umbrella just in case... Good night!

Long and busy day at work... The NAACP Image Awards have been driving all of us crazy.

Went to the gym before work and getting ready to go out and celebrate something of which I have not yet been told about, should I be frightened?

Tired, but ready to keep it going... Hope I don't get to wet when it starts raining later.

What an excellent day!

Not that I had that much planned for the day, but I managed to get everything done. I went to breakfast with a friend then checked out a new bank since my old one has decided that using the bank is not good enough, I must pay for the privilege (gotta love the corporate greed -- over $8.50/month).

It was a beautiful day, first one on my day off in quite a while that was sunny and warm enough to lay out for some Sol worship. Then I went to the gym and had an excellent workout, it felt SO good.

Had dinner at this Japanese Teriyaki place called Sarku Japan in the newly redone Fox Hills Mall, oops Westfield Culver City.

Overall things have been great today, yesterday REALLY charged my batteries and I have set a few more things in motion for after the 15^th of April. I really am happier than I have been in SO long. I have light at the end of the tunnel and "the world is my oyster" or so they say.

The Beginnings of Recovery

11:00

OK, so something is up... The Universe is conspiring something and I find I am looking forward to seeing what.

I woke up and decided to wear my Buddha shirt to my breakfast with K and R. Afterward I had planned to go over to the Grind or Library and do some writing. During breakfast I asked R what he was doing today and what route he was planning to take. On a spur of the moment decision I decided to go to Lake Shrine. I LOVE it here!

SoCal in February and I could actually get away with shorts and a T-shirt but I am dressed a bit more appropriately. Am I slipping into respectability?!?

Something has been weighing on my heart for a while and I have been in such a funk and verging on depression. I think I will spend the day relaxing and meditating to see what it is I am missing.

I have chosen a great spot to start with, I'm on the landing between the windmill and the waterfall (I never noticed it before). One of the swans just scared the daylights out of me... I suddenly had him(?) swim by and start flapping his wings like crazy, really changed the mood suddenly, but he seems to have settled down for now.

Just being here makes me feel better, I am not exactly peaceful within but I can feel the peace without and may be able to take some of it home. I miss peace at hime. Maybe I can find what it is that I am missing there, it has gone from sanctuary to something else but I can still feel its potential to be otherwise.

There is a turtle that keeps swimming by, almost as if he's keeping an eye out for me and making sure I am OK.

Just taking the day here will at least charge my batteries a bit, they are nearly empty. I have been so disconnected and just drifting on the currents of my life. I feel like I have been trying to steer currents to a destination of my choosing but I forgot or lost my rudder... I will remedy that!

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17:50 aka 5:50 PM

I took a short break from Lake Shrine at noon to make a Communicator call for my Landmark Series, it was the shortest call I have done so far, but it seemed pretty good. I went back in and walked around the lake and stopped in the chapel to meditate for a while.

While I was meditating, a gentleman who had been meditating in the front of the room got up to leave and I could not help but giggle a bit. He was wearing a leather motorcycle outfit and trying SO hard to be quiet and not disturb others, but the harder he tried the noisier he was.

I took some nice photos of the area and will put them on Facebook when I get home.

I finally left about 2:00 and while grabbing some lunch, had an amazing conversation with my Dad that lasted almost 90 minutes. It was unlike anything we have had in the past, no judgments on either side, just two people having a conversation about whatever came up. Those who read my blog entries are likely aware of the difficulties I have had in the past with my dad, not today.

I stopped of at 212 Pier, probably one of the COOLEST coffee houses I have ever been to, to type up and finish this entry, I am beginning to think I may have picked up a bit of a sunburn today, I have that radient heat feeling you get with an minor burn. Oh well, if that is the cost of such an amazing day, COOL!!!!

I am feeling better than I have in months, I may just be about ready for my meeting at work on Thursday and the repercussions in 60 days. Viva le Spiritgeek!

Note:
This entry was cross-posted to both the Spiritgeek Blog and the Personal Journal.

Well, today has started off as a mixed bag of nuts...

I woke up and made myself an omelette (ham, feta and sauteed tomatoes -- GOOD) and after getting myself together to leave, somewhere I lost 15 minutes and didn't get to stop for coffee on the way... Wah!!!!

Once I got to work, I had a driver that has a reputation for being a bit whiny, we actually keep a pacifier in the desk for him, had some stupid issue and I lost it. As much as I felt terrible about losing it, in a way it was such a relief to get all the crap off my chest.

I'm sure I'm going to apologize for what happened, but I doubt that I will for what was said, it was true, just about as subtle as brick.

The rest of the day was fairly uneventful but long. We have a couple of events going on and tomorrow is going to be nasty. I'm kinda glad that I won't be there...

Two big meetings tomorrow, some Inspire U stuff in the morning and another in WeHo. I also have a training session in the evening at 17:50 so it is going to be a full day. It's also to start raining again, but just for the day.

A beautiful day today but it seems everyone is in a cranky or irritable mood today.

I feeling pretty good, just tired, probably from working late last night, getting to bed as fast as I could feed the kitties then up at 07:00 so I could go to the gym before work. The "bar" in the gym was closed so no protein fix after my workout. Well, I'll be going home soon and can go to bed early.

K wants to get together tomorrow evening and go over some things and we have that meeting in WeHo on Tuesday. Well at least he's driving in the rain Tuesday... he he he

I want to get some writing done tomorrow before work and I'm thinking since I have the time and some Feta, I might make myself an omelette for breakfast, mmm tasty!

5 Personal 12 Week Goals

I'm currently reading Body for Life which asks the following question:

What are the five most important, specific accomplishments you need to make, within the next 12 weeks, for you to be pleased with the progress of your body and life?

My answers in the form of affirmative statements are:

• Within 12 weeks, I will lose 25 pounds.
• Within 12 weeks, I will leave my current job at A*****.
• Within 12 weeks, I will fix Harry Honda.
• Within 12 weeks, I will go on at least six dates.
• Within 12 weeks, I will finish writing "10 Secrets to the Secret".

We finally have some dry weather and it is cold as a witches tit at night, but NO RAIN for a few days then only a day possibly on Tuesday and maybe some more next Saturday.

Well, I managed to survive day 1 of the rain in Los Angeles, 4 more days to go with Thursday being the worst of the storms. LA gets weather, who would have guessed...

Had a mellow day at work and it was nice... The days after an event are over are when everyone takes a chill pill and all the crap of the last few days blows over. Events, award shows in particular can be REAL stressful; how much is deserved and how much is just the way people do things is another question.

I was up late last night due to the Golden Globes, so I decided not to get up as usual and go to the gym before work and I figured I'm off tomorrow so I went after work. I don't know why, but I'm finding that the free-weights workout stuff is SERIOUSLY making me enjoy going to the gym more. Steve and I had talked about adding them maybe one night a week, but I wanted to do it again.

I feel SO good about myself and it seems to be making headway in my transformations of my body. I physically feel great and, to be honest, it seems to make me AMAZINGLY horny... LOL

As much as I have enjoyed the physical benefits of my diet and exercise regime, it has also been enhancing my meditations and some of my writing. "10 Secrets to the Secret" is going to get major attention tomorrow and I may have the first section ready to go to the editor shortly. Now if I can just handle the corrections... ;-P

Going to feed the kitties and crash, I have my regular breakfast meeting tomorrow morning and I want to get in some meditation in before I go. I wouldn't mind getting in a good hour before I have to go.

Life truly is awesome, the bumps are not so bad when they get put into proper perspective.

I have been so busy with the latest blog entry, I've written 3 versions and hate all 3. It's crazy personal and if I'm not careful, likely to come back and bite me in the ass. I'm trying to rewrite it again and make it a bit more general, not quite so personal, that will help a bit I think.

They say that the weather is supposed to change Sunday evening and rain anywhere from 6 to 20 inches over the next week, fun biking!!!

Well, off to bed and back to it tomorrow.

It's been a good day, a little rain this morning, some work on catching up the blogs and "10 Secrets to the Secret" along with some Babylon 5 for entertainment.

Yesterday, I went shopping around Santa Monica and stopped by Thunderbolt Spiritual Books, I haven't been in there for a while, I had forgotten how nice it is. While I was there I stumbled across a CD called "Theta Transport" by Tommy Brunjes. It reminds me of Dick Sutphen's "Alpha & Theta Waves" and "Hypnotic OM" disks except the music is better...

K & R came over last night and we had a little party, a little Brandy and too much गांजा. K & R meant it as a joke but they hit a raw nerve and one of my greatest fears. I'm going to write a blog entry about it shortly, but in some ways, I have NEVER been so scared, not in what they did but in what I sometimes see and fear for the future. Sounds stupid, but it's something I have been seeing in dreams since I was a kid and I don't want it to happen, I want to find a way to avoid it.

Well, I need to pack my gym stuff for tomorrow as well as make a sandwich for lunch, the cats would like their box cleaned and then I'm going to bed. I will be able to read before I turn the lights out, that will be nice.

Gorgeous day today, mid-70's and lightly cloudy and just absolutely fabulous!!!

I'm having a great day and it is my Friday so in a few short hours, four if I stay till the end, I'm out of here for two days. (I'm finishing this entry later) I left early and had a lovely dinner.

The day did get a little odder as it went on. One of the guys I worked with intorduced me to some YouTube videos where they take Music Videos and dub them with new lyrics talking about the video, here's one for example; Pat Benatar's "Love is a Battlefield". One of the ones I stumbled across was Billy Idol doing "Dancing With Myself" and when I went home, I picked an episode of "Glee" from the DVR to watch and it had the same song being performed. There were several little incidences of coincidence that happened through the day.

I went to the gym this morning and I think I may have overdone things a bit as I've been sore all day, but it's good

It's a beautiful day in SoCal, mid 70's and didn't even need my jacket on the ride to work this morning. A pretty mellow day at work and having a good time overall.

I have been doing some self-medication that has involved large quantities of food, particularly late at night after I get home from work. That usually means I'm either smoking the गांजा too much or I am depressed. I have been kind of avoiding the गांजा for two reasons; 1) most of the stuff out there now days is WAY to strong for my taste (read: 1 hit and I'm a zombie for the evening) and 2) I'm having enough allergy issues with my throat without trashing it out more with smoking.

I've been in a bit of a funk lately, but I don't think of it as depression. Just glad the holidays are over and a new year of possibilities is upon us and I'm hoping for a better year than last.

I knew it was going to be slow today, so I was planning on working on the "10 Secrets to the Secret" but wouldn't you know, I left the drive sitting next to the laptop in the living room. Let's hope the cats don't find it and turn it into a toy to be lost for eternity.

As soon as I finish this entry, I think I'll try to either get a head-start on the February Zeitgeist Newsletter or I'll work on a regular blog entry.

Ran across this today and HAD to add it so I can find it again. I've loved "Adagio for Strings" since I first heard it in "Platoon" and DJ Tiesto does an excellent version.

Got home from work yesterday and was unconscious before I knew what hit me. I fell asleep before the 2^nd story made it on TMZ, that's tired.

It has been a beautiful day today, the temps have been in the 70's and there has been a light breeze blowing and you would never know that it was January, not even in LA. The only problem with it is that a mild Santa Ana condition is carrying dust or pollen and my sinuses have been running a marathon all day, well at least I know they are working.

I'm a huge fan of neti-pots and mine has been working double shifts in an attempt to cut the sneezing down, doing better but if I don't dry out soon you might want to invest in Kleenex stock.

I am looking forward to going to the gym in the morning, I may be a bit sore ofter, but over all I feel better for having gone and I am loving the improvements in the body. Not only have I lost 40 lbs but I am reshaping the body and for the first time in my life, I'm actually REALLY liking what I see when I look in a mirror.

Sue gave me a Rune reading after work and she didn't really tell me anything that I didn't already know. I had one flip on it's own while I was shuffling and she said it meant that I had been kind of stagnant, not regressing, but not moving forward either. Then she actually started a New Years reading...

When I pulled the actual 5 for my reading, basically she said (1) I am needing to prepare my weapons for my journey. (2) There are some programming, cultural and such that I need to become aware of and determine which to keep or to drop. (3) I have some old family (biological or not) issues that I need to deal with and get beyond, I am conflicted regarding this relationship. (4) I also need to either deal with some side projects/distractions, shit or get off the pot. (5) The continuation of my path will require some patience as the fruiting will take about a year. Not bad, we'll see what comes in the new year.

I've been a bit edgy today, not sure why, but I woke up that way and it hasn't changed as the day goes on.  At least I haven't snapped at anyone...

The newsletter for January is nearly finished. I love the way the universe tends to mess with my head.

I've been at the The Coffee Connection for most of the day working on it and the internet has been great. When it came time for me to proof my content the connection went the way of the Dodo Bird. Fortunately, I have other options.

It has been kind of rainy today, yuck!

Going to go home and work some more on the newsletter, I want it ready to go out on time.  November was a week late going out and December a day or two.  If I have to be neurotic about anything, it might as well be that Midwestern Work Ethic and Deadline thing...  LOL

Tomorrow in New years Eve and I think I may go out for an early evening after work.  I don't have to be back at work till 3:00 the next afternoon, but I don't really think I want to stay out REAL late or get plastered...  we'll see!