Things are getting more and more interesting.

Work is good and I'm actually enjoying it, likely because I know it is not for much longer. I really need to figure a way of bottling that and mass marketing it, I would make a fortune from pleased employers, I am not so sure about the staff...

Down to 17 more days and then it all begins... I'm nervous but thrilled as well.

People and resources are starting to come out of the woodwork, it is both fascinating and a touch creepy, but I guess that is how I like to manifest. I also have a networking group that I think that I will be checking out Friday before work. Not sure how I am going to make that work, network then gym then work -- busy morning.

Club Inspire U is coming along as well, K tells me there is some more news and he seems thrilled about it, not likely to get much out of him tomorrow as his brother is leaving Wednesday for home and the whole crowd will be at breakfast. I know the graphic designer is having computer problems, but I wish the new site would get up. (whine whine)

I want to get some writing done this week as well as everything else. I have not had time to sit and write. OK that is not exactly true, I have had time but not made use of it, I have fixed the bike and a few other minor projects as well as trying to get some relaxation.

Speaking of relaxation, I have the feeling that I may not get much for a while after the 15^th. Things outside of work have been getting faster and faster, usually a sign that rest is not in the forecast.

Actually, that is one of the things I am most concerned about. I will HAVE to keep an eye on time management and not over-extending myself. On top of that I have to keep myself focused enough to get the job done without the boundaries of a set work schedule. That is always the hardest thing for me when I make this transition. To much and I burn myself out VERY quickly and too little and nothing gets accomplished.

I called GH today, left a message but the outgoing sounded like he may be using that number for his business line, well, either way I will likely hear from him tomorrow or the next day.

I got a call yesterday from my Landmark Forum in Action leader, he is so awesome, he is calling to help me with my need to "engage and enroll" and my difficulties in this area. I think it is cool that he is willing to work with me on this outside of the usual class times. He has his one-man show coming up on Sunday, April 4^th, I would like to go but I don't think I can get out early or a ride up to the Theater, but I will see...

Well, I am getting ready to finish work and go to the gym for a good workout and a good night's sleep.

Overall it was an excellent day today.

I had a breakfast to go to this morning and it was a lot of fun. I rode my bike the 6.5 miles there and arrived about 15 minutes early and thought I would try to cool down before going in. I took off my jacket and the heat came off like steam in the brisk morning air, it looked so cool (OK, so I'm a bit strange, you didn't know this?).

I was a bit later than I had planned leaving and I thought I might try catching the Culver City bus to cut on my riding and make up some time. Just as I was riding up to the station, I saw one of their buses turning the corner, I thought I had literally just missed it. Turns out it was just pulling into the station and about 2 minutes later another pulled out to start its run, perfect timing.

Work went well, a bit slow but well. I got home and fell asleep for a bit and was awakened when the kitties decided it was time for their dinner, I am their eternal slave...

The Beginnings of Recovery

11:00

OK, so something is up... The Universe is conspiring something and I find I am looking forward to seeing what.

I woke up and decided to wear my Buddha shirt to my breakfast with K and R. Afterward I had planned to go over to the Grind or Library and do some writing. During breakfast I asked R what he was doing today and what route he was planning to take. On a spur of the moment decision I decided to go to Lake Shrine. I LOVE it here!

SoCal in February and I could actually get away with shorts and a T-shirt but I am dressed a bit more appropriately. Am I slipping into respectability?!?

Something has been weighing on my heart for a while and I have been in such a funk and verging on depression. I think I will spend the day relaxing and meditating to see what it is I am missing.

I have chosen a great spot to start with, I'm on the landing between the windmill and the waterfall (I never noticed it before). One of the swans just scared the daylights out of me... I suddenly had him(?) swim by and start flapping his wings like crazy, really changed the mood suddenly, but he seems to have settled down for now.

Just being here makes me feel better, I am not exactly peaceful within but I can feel the peace without and may be able to take some of it home. I miss peace at hime. Maybe I can find what it is that I am missing there, it has gone from sanctuary to something else but I can still feel its potential to be otherwise.

There is a turtle that keeps swimming by, almost as if he's keeping an eye out for me and making sure I am OK.

Just taking the day here will at least charge my batteries a bit, they are nearly empty. I have been so disconnected and just drifting on the currents of my life. I feel like I have been trying to steer currents to a destination of my choosing but I forgot or lost my rudder... I will remedy that!

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17:50 aka 5:50 PM

I took a short break from Lake Shrine at noon to make a Communicator call for my Landmark Series, it was the shortest call I have done so far, but it seemed pretty good. I went back in and walked around the lake and stopped in the chapel to meditate for a while.

While I was meditating, a gentleman who had been meditating in the front of the room got up to leave and I could not help but giggle a bit. He was wearing a leather motorcycle outfit and trying SO hard to be quiet and not disturb others, but the harder he tried the noisier he was.

I took some nice photos of the area and will put them on Facebook when I get home.

I finally left about 2:00 and while grabbing some lunch, had an amazing conversation with my Dad that lasted almost 90 minutes. It was unlike anything we have had in the past, no judgments on either side, just two people having a conversation about whatever came up. Those who read my blog entries are likely aware of the difficulties I have had in the past with my dad, not today.

I stopped of at 212 Pier, probably one of the COOLEST coffee houses I have ever been to, to type up and finish this entry, I am beginning to think I may have picked up a bit of a sunburn today, I have that radient heat feeling you get with an minor burn. Oh well, if that is the cost of such an amazing day, COOL!!!!

I am feeling better than I have in months, I may just be about ready for my meeting at work on Thursday and the repercussions in 60 days. Viva le Spiritgeek!

Note:
This entry was cross-posted to both the Spiritgeek Blog and the Personal Journal.

Well, I managed to survive day 1 of the rain in Los Angeles, 4 more days to go with Thursday being the worst of the storms. LA gets weather, who would have guessed...

Had a mellow day at work and it was nice... The days after an event are over are when everyone takes a chill pill and all the crap of the last few days blows over. Events, award shows in particular can be REAL stressful; how much is deserved and how much is just the way people do things is another question.

I was up late last night due to the Golden Globes, so I decided not to get up as usual and go to the gym before work and I figured I'm off tomorrow so I went after work. I don't know why, but I'm finding that the free-weights workout stuff is SERIOUSLY making me enjoy going to the gym more. Steve and I had talked about adding them maybe one night a week, but I wanted to do it again.

I feel SO good about myself and it seems to be making headway in my transformations of my body. I physically feel great and, to be honest, it seems to make me AMAZINGLY horny... LOL

As much as I have enjoyed the physical benefits of my diet and exercise regime, it has also been enhancing my meditations and some of my writing. "10 Secrets to the Secret" is going to get major attention tomorrow and I may have the first section ready to go to the editor shortly. Now if I can just handle the corrections... ;-P

Going to feed the kitties and crash, I have my regular breakfast meeting tomorrow morning and I want to get in some meditation in before I go. I wouldn't mind getting in a good hour before I have to go.

Life truly is awesome, the bumps are not so bad when they get put into proper perspective.

Happy New Year...

I finished and sent out the newsletter, awesome!  Good newsletter and on time!

Decided to treat myself to breakfast over at Pepy's Galley and had the Greek Omelet.  Not sure what it is about that thing that I'm addicted to, but I suspect it's the feta cheese...

Getting ready to go to work and still have absolutely no idea where I'm going to get some coffee.  Every place that I've called has been closed, so it looks like I might be destined for Starbucks today, not great, but it will do.

Birdie and Bella and seem to be getting more comfortable at home.  Birdie likes it when I meditate and Bella likes it when I practice Reiki and other energy manipulations, how funny...  I'm beginning to see why cats have been called "familiars" for so long.

I'm not real big on making New Years Resolutions, but if I were to make one, it would be to pursue my spiritual side as the top priority.  It's in my practice and teaching that I truly find my joy and peace.