I am SO glad that I am finished with graveyard shifts, at least for this week. The person I'm working for is still out with the flu so anything is possible for next week...

Came home and crashed for a few hours then ended up at Fab Hot Dogs in Reseda for some lunch with a friend. I had the "LA Street Dog" with chili cheese fries and a Coke, AWESOME!

Afterward we went over to Westfield Topanga, formerly Topanga Plaza, and boy have they added to and fixed that place up. I had an great time looking around and in the process, I bought the following (sort of):

• Audi A5 Cabriolet in Sprint Blue
• About $1000 in clothes at Neiman Marcus
  love the Royal Underground Spring Collection
• over at Cartier
  a $9750 watch
  a $2800 ring
• finally $40 in underwear and socks at Target which I left the store with.

Normally I get ignored when I go to such places but today I must have been oozing money because the staff in all the stores I went to couldn't have been more helpful or nicer -- I'll take it as a good omen on my recent decisions. Shopping for your "dreams" can be an amazing way of programming the universe when using the Law of Attraction (LoA).

Had dinner in West Los Angeles at Pho 99. Everyone seems to think this place is amazing and it was good but I thought the rice noodles in my Pho Ga were a bit rubbery, personally I prefer Pho Show in Culver City or Absolutely PHO Bulous on La Cienega by the Beverly Center.

Well tomorrow is going to be an early and LONG day, so I'm going to bed -- nighty night.

What an excellent day!

Not that I had that much planned for the day, but I managed to get everything done. I went to breakfast with a friend then checked out a new bank since my old one has decided that using the bank is not good enough, I must pay for the privilege (gotta love the corporate greed -- over $8.50/month).

It was a beautiful day, first one on my day off in quite a while that was sunny and warm enough to lay out for some Sol worship. Then I went to the gym and had an excellent workout, it felt SO good.

Had dinner at this Japanese Teriyaki place called Sarku Japan in the newly redone Fox Hills Mall, oops Westfield Culver City.

Overall things have been great today, yesterday REALLY charged my batteries and I have set a few more things in motion for after the 15^th of April. I really am happier than I have been in SO long. I have light at the end of the tunnel and "the world is my oyster" or so they say.

The Beginnings of Recovery

11:00

OK, so something is up... The Universe is conspiring something and I find I am looking forward to seeing what.

I woke up and decided to wear my Buddha shirt to my breakfast with K and R. Afterward I had planned to go over to the Grind or Library and do some writing. During breakfast I asked R what he was doing today and what route he was planning to take. On a spur of the moment decision I decided to go to Lake Shrine. I LOVE it here!

SoCal in February and I could actually get away with shorts and a T-shirt but I am dressed a bit more appropriately. Am I slipping into respectability?!?

Something has been weighing on my heart for a while and I have been in such a funk and verging on depression. I think I will spend the day relaxing and meditating to see what it is I am missing.

I have chosen a great spot to start with, I'm on the landing between the windmill and the waterfall (I never noticed it before). One of the swans just scared the daylights out of me... I suddenly had him(?) swim by and start flapping his wings like crazy, really changed the mood suddenly, but he seems to have settled down for now.

Just being here makes me feel better, I am not exactly peaceful within but I can feel the peace without and may be able to take some of it home. I miss peace at hime. Maybe I can find what it is that I am missing there, it has gone from sanctuary to something else but I can still feel its potential to be otherwise.

There is a turtle that keeps swimming by, almost as if he's keeping an eye out for me and making sure I am OK.

Just taking the day here will at least charge my batteries a bit, they are nearly empty. I have been so disconnected and just drifting on the currents of my life. I feel like I have been trying to steer currents to a destination of my choosing but I forgot or lost my rudder... I will remedy that!

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17:50 aka 5:50 PM

I took a short break from Lake Shrine at noon to make a Communicator call for my Landmark Series, it was the shortest call I have done so far, but it seemed pretty good. I went back in and walked around the lake and stopped in the chapel to meditate for a while.

While I was meditating, a gentleman who had been meditating in the front of the room got up to leave and I could not help but giggle a bit. He was wearing a leather motorcycle outfit and trying SO hard to be quiet and not disturb others, but the harder he tried the noisier he was.

I took some nice photos of the area and will put them on Facebook when I get home.

I finally left about 2:00 and while grabbing some lunch, had an amazing conversation with my Dad that lasted almost 90 minutes. It was unlike anything we have had in the past, no judgments on either side, just two people having a conversation about whatever came up. Those who read my blog entries are likely aware of the difficulties I have had in the past with my dad, not today.

I stopped of at 212 Pier, probably one of the COOLEST coffee houses I have ever been to, to type up and finish this entry, I am beginning to think I may have picked up a bit of a sunburn today, I have that radient heat feeling you get with an minor burn. Oh well, if that is the cost of such an amazing day, COOL!!!!

I am feeling better than I have in months, I may just be about ready for my meeting at work on Thursday and the repercussions in 60 days. Viva le Spiritgeek!

Note:
This entry was cross-posted to both the Spiritgeek Blog and the Personal Journal.

My latest tweet says it all...

LONG day at work, great workout at the gym, wonderful dinner and all I want is to go to sleep or get laid... LOL

Go guess what happened, I'm going to bed.

Well, today has started off as a mixed bag of nuts...

I woke up and made myself an omelette (ham, feta and sauteed tomatoes -- GOOD) and after getting myself together to leave, somewhere I lost 15 minutes and didn't get to stop for coffee on the way... Wah!!!!

Once I got to work, I had a driver that has a reputation for being a bit whiny, we actually keep a pacifier in the desk for him, had some stupid issue and I lost it. As much as I felt terrible about losing it, in a way it was such a relief to get all the crap off my chest.

I'm sure I'm going to apologize for what happened, but I doubt that I will for what was said, it was true, just about as subtle as brick.

The rest of the day was fairly uneventful but long. We have a couple of events going on and tomorrow is going to be nasty. I'm kinda glad that I won't be there...

Two big meetings tomorrow, some Inspire U stuff in the morning and another in WeHo. I also have a training session in the evening at 17:50 so it is going to be a full day. It's also to start raining again, but just for the day.

A beautiful day today but it seems everyone is in a cranky or irritable mood today.

I feeling pretty good, just tired, probably from working late last night, getting to bed as fast as I could feed the kitties then up at 07:00 so I could go to the gym before work. The "bar" in the gym was closed so no protein fix after my workout. Well, I'll be going home soon and can go to bed early.

K wants to get together tomorrow evening and go over some things and we have that meeting in WeHo on Tuesday. Well at least he's driving in the rain Tuesday... he he he

I want to get some writing done tomorrow before work and I'm thinking since I have the time and some Feta, I might make myself an omelette for breakfast, mmm tasty!

I will be so glad when the award show season is over, Los Angeles becomes such a bunch of morons when it comes to thinking things through and the egos EXPLODE!

Went to the gym after work and had an amazing workout. I ran into my friend Steve who once promised to give me some tips and help me add some free-weights to my workout. Today ended up being the day and he showed me some great stuff and I apparently did pretty well as he seemed to be reasonably impressed. cool!

Afterwards, I went to grab something for dinner and immediately after taking the first byte, it turned into a great white having a feeding frenzy, ack! Good thing I made it a high-protein meal...

While I was on the elliptical, I kept hearing the voice of my crack dealer, not the illegal one, but my brittle mistress. I hope all is well.

I've got a couple of errands to do then I'm going to bed, I might feed the cats first... It will keep me from bleeding... ;-)

Good day, went REALLY fast and I did a quick computer job while I was at work. COOL!!!!

Going to run home and crash immediately, I have to be back @ 07:00 tomorrow morning. Good thing that I get off at 19:00 tonight and not 23:30 as I used to.

My new affirmation for the day has been: "Money is attracted to me like a lover, it cannot stay away from me." Cool and has had me in a great mood all day.

I never did get a chance to eat my salad I brought for dinner, oops, guess I'll just have top eat it tomorrow, but I get off work @ 15:30 so I might save it for Sunday instead... We'll see.

Night!