The radio show is today, I'm not sure if I'm going to guesting or not today, but it's always fun anyway. If you want to listen in, go to Reputation Radio and mouse over the "chat Room" and click on "Live Radio & Podcast Shows" to activate the player (another way is to click here, but I'm not guaranteeing how long this back-door will work). Join us in the chat room to make it completely fun!

Had a bit of a headache the last couple of days, I would love to say it is a hangover, but I have not drunk or smoked anything to give me such an issue. Feels more like a stress headache anyway, I think I'm still de-stressing from all the changes lately.

It's a beautiful day in SoCal today and I am looking forward to going to the gym later...

Need to get back to writing "10 Secrets to the Secret" and getting ready for Session 3 this coming Monday at "The Spot" at 4455 Overland Ave, Culver City, CA.

L8r

A rambling on age...

What an interesting time to be alive and reasonably young and healthy. OK, it's my birthday and I am fixating a touch on it and my age.

A friend this morning said that we actually have several ages to which I come out as follows:

Chronologically Biologically Mentally Psychologically

45 30ish 25ish 16

I remember 20 years ago, does not seem that long ago, that my friends were tormenting me about being a "quarter-century old" and I thought they were nuts and now I am starting to push the next quarter. I never did understand the fixation with age.

Considering how much grief I have put this body through over the years, I aam impressed with how well it is handling the wear and tear. I never thought I would make it to 18 and to have made 45 was inconceivable until a few years ago.

I am beginning to understand the comment that youth is wasted on the young though. I think that is as much the fault of the progenitors as it is the young. What stresses were the young put under and is it really that big of a surprise that they would spend a lot of it in sometimes questionable ways? We taught them to fear and to be ashamed of what they are and we wonder why they rebel? Just how blind are we to the reactions to our actions?

Age is about a measurement of time in this particular classroom called life and doesn't really mean much unless you want it to. I think I will just ignore it for a bit longer, say 400 years and see how I feel then.

Great day today!!!

I had a friend in a situation that spent the night and he gave me a ride to my volunteer session that I will be doing every week through the end of April. It was so cool to be of use to someone and know that people tonight are going to have what they need already prepared.

I went to the gym and had a VERY long and great workout. I think I may have over done it, all I want to do is sleep, so I think I will. Screw if it is only 18:30. I might get up early and get some work done... Right! ;-)

Not sure what happened to the rain we were supposed to get today, but I had an umbrella just in case... Good night!

Yesterday was both amazing and strange.

I woke up with a mild headache that I attributed to releasing of stress. I am one of those people that tends to hold onto their stress while they are going through things. When it is finally over I pay for it with tension headaches for a day or two but then it seems to be gone... Thank God!

I popped an Advil to help me get through the morning and even managed to meditate pretty well. I really enjoyed it.

At work I finally had my meeting regarding April 15^th and it is now official. I am sometimes completely amazed at how much of a drama queen I can be in my own head. I expected a few difficulties getting through the meeting but it went both really well and I was wished well by all parties involved.

The strange thing was last night when I just could not get tired. I stayed up until about 3:00AM and for the life of me couldn't imagine why. I have been getting plenty of sleep, but not enough that I should be THAT un-tired.

I found out today that a friend had been in some trouble and had been planning on coming over to my house for some help and that they had decided to get another form of help since they thought they were too late for me (that has been since remedied). Fortunately, all is well overall with them and other than a few bumps and bruises on their ego and spirit. What a coincidence.

I didn't make it to the gym today or will I tomorrow, I slept in a bit and the gym closes an hour after I get off work tonight. I would go before work tomorrow, but I already have a scheduled breakfast that I will be racing to work from in the morning. So, I guess Monday will be my next visit, I'll probably go after work so I do not have to get up so early and take my time.

Interesting day, my meeting to announce April 15^th has been delayed a day but there were some leaks via the coffee house route. Oh well...

I'm feeling fine but it has been kind of difficult to keep my positive mindset going, work is work and it is what it is. I'm doing OK but a minor headache has been thrumming in my neck and skull for the last couple of hours. With how I'm feeling, I'm REALLY glad that I did my meditation this morning, it always gives me a charge and I do not even want to think about how draggy I would be if I hadn't.

I have class tonight, looking forward to getting there. No class next week, just a personal reminder.

5 Personal 12 Week Goals

I'm currently reading Body for Life which asks the following question:

What are the five most important, specific accomplishments you need to make, within the next 12 weeks, for you to be pleased with the progress of your body and life?

My answers in the form of affirmative statements are:

• Within 12 weeks, I will lose 25 pounds.
• Within 12 weeks, I will leave my current job at A*****.
• Within 12 weeks, I will fix Harry Honda.
• Within 12 weeks, I will go on at least six dates.
• Within 12 weeks, I will finish writing "10 Secrets to the Secret".

We finally have some dry weather and it is cold as a witches tit at night, but NO RAIN for a few days then only a day possibly on Tuesday and maybe some more next Saturday.

Well, I managed to survive day 1 of the rain in Los Angeles, 4 more days to go with Thursday being the worst of the storms. LA gets weather, who would have guessed...

Had a mellow day at work and it was nice... The days after an event are over are when everyone takes a chill pill and all the crap of the last few days blows over. Events, award shows in particular can be REAL stressful; how much is deserved and how much is just the way people do things is another question.

I was up late last night due to the Golden Globes, so I decided not to get up as usual and go to the gym before work and I figured I'm off tomorrow so I went after work. I don't know why, but I'm finding that the free-weights workout stuff is SERIOUSLY making me enjoy going to the gym more. Steve and I had talked about adding them maybe one night a week, but I wanted to do it again.

I feel SO good about myself and it seems to be making headway in my transformations of my body. I physically feel great and, to be honest, it seems to make me AMAZINGLY horny... LOL

As much as I have enjoyed the physical benefits of my diet and exercise regime, it has also been enhancing my meditations and some of my writing. "10 Secrets to the Secret" is going to get major attention tomorrow and I may have the first section ready to go to the editor shortly. Now if I can just handle the corrections... ;-P

Going to feed the kitties and crash, I have my regular breakfast meeting tomorrow morning and I want to get in some meditation in before I go. I wouldn't mind getting in a good hour before I have to go.

Life truly is awesome, the bumps are not so bad when they get put into proper perspective.

I will be so glad when the award show season is over, Los Angeles becomes such a bunch of morons when it comes to thinking things through and the egos EXPLODE!

Went to the gym after work and had an amazing workout. I ran into my friend Steve who once promised to give me some tips and help me add some free-weights to my workout. Today ended up being the day and he showed me some great stuff and I apparently did pretty well as he seemed to be reasonably impressed. cool!

Afterwards, I went to grab something for dinner and immediately after taking the first byte, it turned into a great white having a feeding frenzy, ack! Good thing I made it a high-protein meal...

While I was on the elliptical, I kept hearing the voice of my crack dealer, not the illegal one, but my brittle mistress. I hope all is well.

I've got a couple of errands to do then I'm going to bed, I might feed the cats first... It will keep me from bleeding... ;-)

It's a beautiful day in SoCal, mid 70's and didn't even need my jacket on the ride to work this morning. A pretty mellow day at work and having a good time overall.

I have been doing some self-medication that has involved large quantities of food, particularly late at night after I get home from work. That usually means I'm either smoking the गांजा too much or I am depressed. I have been kind of avoiding the गांजा for two reasons; 1) most of the stuff out there now days is WAY to strong for my taste (read: 1 hit and I'm a zombie for the evening) and 2) I'm having enough allergy issues with my throat without trashing it out more with smoking.

I've been in a bit of a funk lately, but I don't think of it as depression. Just glad the holidays are over and a new year of possibilities is upon us and I'm hoping for a better year than last.

I knew it was going to be slow today, so I was planning on working on the "10 Secrets to the Secret" but wouldn't you know, I left the drive sitting next to the laptop in the living room. Let's hope the cats don't find it and turn it into a toy to be lost for eternity.

As soon as I finish this entry, I think I'll try to either get a head-start on the February Zeitgeist Newsletter or I'll work on a regular blog entry.

Ran across this today and HAD to add it so I can find it again. I've loved "Adagio for Strings" since I first heard it in "Platoon" and DJ Tiesto does an excellent version.

Good day today, slept in a bit and ran a few errands. Finally made it to get the face cleanser I've been using, the other tube must have been a sample of something,as the other container is SO more than double the size.

Been kinda draggy, my sinuses are drying slowly but the throat is still a bit off. Fortunately I still have my voice or I would have a problem. Going to bed and going to do the gym tomorrow.

I feel like something is about to happen, I don't know what, but something seems a bit out of sorts. I'm curious to see what it is.

Need to finish the first 4 chapters of "10 Secrets to the Secret" so I can mail them off to be proofed. It's pretty tough to write a book. I've also had some ideas for "The Executioner's Confession" that should work well. I find my humor comes across with Rebecca more than the Secrets book. Working on that, but the people who have read the early stages seem to like it, maybe I'm just being to tough on myself.

Got home from work yesterday and was unconscious before I knew what hit me. I fell asleep before the 2^nd story made it on TMZ, that's tired.

It has been a beautiful day today, the temps have been in the 70's and there has been a light breeze blowing and you would never know that it was January, not even in LA. The only problem with it is that a mild Santa Ana condition is carrying dust or pollen and my sinuses have been running a marathon all day, well at least I know they are working.

I'm a huge fan of neti-pots and mine has been working double shifts in an attempt to cut the sneezing down, doing better but if I don't dry out soon you might want to invest in Kleenex stock.

I am looking forward to going to the gym in the morning, I may be a bit sore ofter, but over all I feel better for having gone and I am loving the improvements in the body. Not only have I lost 40 lbs but I am reshaping the body and for the first time in my life, I'm actually REALLY liking what I see when I look in a mirror.

Sue gave me a Rune reading after work and she didn't really tell me anything that I didn't already know. I had one flip on it's own while I was shuffling and she said it meant that I had been kind of stagnant, not regressing, but not moving forward either. Then she actually started a New Years reading...

When I pulled the actual 5 for my reading, basically she said (1) I am needing to prepare my weapons for my journey. (2) There are some programming, cultural and such that I need to become aware of and determine which to keep or to drop. (3) I have some old family (biological or not) issues that I need to deal with and get beyond, I am conflicted regarding this relationship. (4) I also need to either deal with some side projects/distractions, shit or get off the pot. (5) The continuation of my path will require some patience as the fruiting will take about a year. Not bad, we'll see what comes in the new year.