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I'm currently online, listening to Reputation Label's "Frantic Friday" show and we started around 200,000 listeners in the first half-hour and at 90 minutes we are at 367,000 listeners!

If you have never been to the show, Fridays 13:00-15:00 (Pacific) 21:00-23:00 (London) you really are missing a lot of fun.Between our main hosts Johnny and Kris Searle, along with Ringmaster Pete, Karen, Mizzy and Monkey, we have a really fun time.

I really enjoy doing the show, the people on it are such fun as well as our audience. It is THE place to spend a couple of hours to start the weekend with.

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The Los Angeles/West Hollywood Gay Pride festivities start today and run through the weekend. I am not sure what I'm going to do about it, I will likely go to the parade on Sunday but I doubt I will go to the festival, never been particularly comfortable reliving lives as a sardine which is how the crowd makes me feel...

We will see on Sunday, just in case.

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Had a bit of a headache the last couple of days, I would love to say it is a hangover, but I have not drunk or smoked anything to give me such an issue. Feels more like a stress headache anyway, I think I'm still de-stressing from all the changes lately.

It's a beautiful day in SoCal today and I am looking forward to going to the gym later...

Need to get back to writing "10 Secrets to the Secret" and getting ready for Session 3 this coming Monday at "The Spot" at 4455 Overland Ave, Culver City, CA.

L8r

A rambling on age...

What an interesting time to be alive and reasonably young and healthy. OK, it's my birthday and I am fixating a touch on it and my age.

A friend this morning said that we actually have several ages to which I come out as follows:

Chronologically Biologically Mentally Psychologically

45 30ish 25ish 16

I remember 20 years ago, does not seem that long ago, that my friends were tormenting me about being a "quarter-century old" and I thought they were nuts and now I am starting to push the next quarter. I never did understand the fixation with age.

Considering how much grief I have put this body through over the years, I aam impressed with how well it is handling the wear and tear. I never thought I would make it to 18 and to have made 45 was inconceivable until a few years ago.

I am beginning to understand the comment that youth is wasted on the young though. I think that is as much the fault of the progenitors as it is the young. What stresses were the young put under and is it really that big of a surprise that they would spend a lot of it in sometimes questionable ways? We taught them to fear and to be ashamed of what they are and we wonder why they rebel? Just how blind are we to the reactions to our actions?

Age is about a measurement of time in this particular classroom called life and doesn't really mean much unless you want it to. I think I will just ignore it for a bit longer, say 400 years and see how I feel then.

This has been a VERY strange week of sorts.

I am down to 10 days till the end of the job and I still feel jazzed about it most of the time. I have the occasional moment of doubt, but who wouldn't? It passes and those moments are few and far between.

Last Thursday was stranger than usual, I was at work and my manager said that she and the GM needed to have a talk with me later in the afternoon, say around 4 to 4:30. No problem... Then SHE shows up, the dreaded HR lady that has a reputation of not coming down from on high, aka corporate, unless a head is about to roll.

I thought I was going to be getting out of the job 2 weeks early, but it was for someone else, I was spared. Gotta suck big time to be fired on April Fools.

They still have not replaced me, I hope the do so soon. I will feel awful if I leave them shorthanded, but I gave them 60 days notice, what more could they want?

Busy day tomorrow, breakfast meeting for more details on Club Inspire U and I'm going to scream my bloody head off if the site isn't up soon. I know the designer has been having difficulties with his servers, but we are less than 2 weeks from out premier and I still see the "Coming Soon" page I put up. ARGH!

I have a phone session at 10:30 and then I have to go to West Hollywood for another meeting with a friend about marketing ideas. I feel so official, I'm going to be marketed... Gads!

While I'm there, WeHo, I'm going to stop by and see if M is at work and if so, muster up the courage to ask him out on a date. I'm more afraid of that then being self-employed in this economy, now just what does that tell you?

Night!

Things are getting more and more interesting.

Work is good and I'm actually enjoying it, likely because I know it is not for much longer. I really need to figure a way of bottling that and mass marketing it, I would make a fortune from pleased employers, I am not so sure about the staff...

Down to 17 more days and then it all begins... I'm nervous but thrilled as well.

People and resources are starting to come out of the woodwork, it is both fascinating and a touch creepy, but I guess that is how I like to manifest. I also have a networking group that I think that I will be checking out Friday before work. Not sure how I am going to make that work, network then gym then work -- busy morning.

Club Inspire U is coming along as well, K tells me there is some more news and he seems thrilled about it, not likely to get much out of him tomorrow as his brother is leaving Wednesday for home and the whole crowd will be at breakfast. I know the graphic designer is having computer problems, but I wish the new site would get up. (whine whine)

I want to get some writing done this week as well as everything else. I have not had time to sit and write. OK that is not exactly true, I have had time but not made use of it, I have fixed the bike and a few other minor projects as well as trying to get some relaxation.

Speaking of relaxation, I have the feeling that I may not get much for a while after the 15^th. Things outside of work have been getting faster and faster, usually a sign that rest is not in the forecast.

Actually, that is one of the things I am most concerned about. I will HAVE to keep an eye on time management and not over-extending myself. On top of that I have to keep myself focused enough to get the job done without the boundaries of a set work schedule. That is always the hardest thing for me when I make this transition. To much and I burn myself out VERY quickly and too little and nothing gets accomplished.

I called GH today, left a message but the outgoing sounded like he may be using that number for his business line, well, either way I will likely hear from him tomorrow or the next day.

I got a call yesterday from my Landmark Forum in Action leader, he is so awesome, he is calling to help me with my need to "engage and enroll" and my difficulties in this area. I think it is cool that he is willing to work with me on this outside of the usual class times. He has his one-man show coming up on Sunday, April 4^th, I would like to go but I don't think I can get out early or a ride up to the Theater, but I will see...

Well, I am getting ready to finish work and go to the gym for a good workout and a good night's sleep.

Good day today!

Went to my Tuesday breakfast, got a haircut, worshiped the Sun God and he blessed me with some color then went to the gym for a good workout.

Then I ended up in NoHo to pick up posters and canvass to distribute fliers around my old neighborhood.

Also finally determined why nobody seems to have gotten the newsletter, so I both fixed it and decided it is officially the Marpril issue and will put the next issue out in May.

Now I'm going to bed so I can get up and do my usual Wednesday volunteer thing and a second dose in the evening to help out on the "special night".

I have been SO bad with keeping up on my journal, sorry about that, but I have been insanely busy. Not an excuse, but true...

I am down to less than a month before I leave my job and officially go into business full-time as Spiritgeek.com. The closer that D-day gets, the happier I am that I have made the right decision.

Kris and I are also working on the premier night of Club Inspire U on April 17^th at the Cobra Club in North Hollywood. I'm beginning to learn an awful lot about promotions from a friend who has been VERY helpful with tips and suggestions.

I haven't made it to the gym as often as I should and that's not good. I have been going in so many directions. I'm going to find some time and go tomorrow one way or another.

Had a call from a company that wants me to carry their product line, not sure yet, but they did give me a sample of one of the products and I have been quite pleased so far. They are called Sidda Tech and I am trying their "Detox"... I'm only a couple of uses into it but I have been impressed so far. If you go to the site, put in the coupon code "SG0310" for $5.00 off your purchase.

Going to bed now, it's been a LONG day and I am tired. I have another long couple of days coming up as well, guess it's true what they say, "There is no rest for the wicked."

Great day today...

Had a wonderful meditation this morning and work was pretty good, it's still work but it wasn't terrible. The only thing I wish had happened differently is one of the drivers spilled the beans on my leaving, nice guy but as subtle as nuclear blast...

I realized that work can no longer bother me any more than I choose to let it. It is work, something I do that pays me (weakly) for my time. In about 42 days it will cease to be "my" problem completely. Why make it more than that?

Went to class tonight and had a wonderful insight into the difference between helping someone and creating a possibility in their lives. It took a while, but I realized that it was the same as "Give a man a fish and you feed him for the day, teach him to fish and you feed him (and then some) for a lifetime."

I was definitely tired last night, I was in bed no later than 19:15 and slept till 08:00 this morning. Now THAT is tired...

Great day today!!!

I had a friend in a situation that spent the night and he gave me a ride to my volunteer session that I will be doing every week through the end of April. It was so cool to be of use to someone and know that people tonight are going to have what they need already prepared.

I went to the gym and had a VERY long and great workout. I think I may have over done it, all I want to do is sleep, so I think I will. Screw if it is only 18:30. I might get up early and get some work done... Right! ;-)

Not sure what happened to the rain we were supposed to get today, but I had an umbrella just in case... Good night!

Long and busy day at work... The NAACP Image Awards have been driving all of us crazy.

Went to the gym before work and getting ready to go out and celebrate something of which I have not yet been told about, should I be frightened?

Tired, but ready to keep it going... Hope I don't get to wet when it starts raining later.

I am SO glad that I am finished with graveyard shifts, at least for this week. The person I'm working for is still out with the flu so anything is possible for next week...

Came home and crashed for a few hours then ended up at Fab Hot Dogs in Reseda for some lunch with a friend. I had the "LA Street Dog" with chili cheese fries and a Coke, AWESOME!

Afterward we went over to Westfield Topanga, formerly Topanga Plaza, and boy have they added to and fixed that place up. I had an great time looking around and in the process, I bought the following (sort of):

• Audi A5 Cabriolet in Sprint Blue
• About $1000 in clothes at Neiman Marcus
  love the Royal Underground Spring Collection
• over at Cartier
  a $9750 watch
  a $2800 ring
• finally $40 in underwear and socks at Target which I left the store with.

Normally I get ignored when I go to such places but today I must have been oozing money because the staff in all the stores I went to couldn't have been more helpful or nicer -- I'll take it as a good omen on my recent decisions. Shopping for your "dreams" can be an amazing way of programming the universe when using the Law of Attraction (LoA).

Had dinner in West Los Angeles at Pho 99. Everyone seems to think this place is amazing and it was good but I thought the rice noodles in my Pho Ga were a bit rubbery, personally I prefer Pho Show in Culver City or Absolutely PHO Bulous on La Cienega by the Beverly Center.

Well tomorrow is going to be an early and LONG day, so I'm going to bed -- nighty night.

Well it was a nice day till I decided to accept a call from work and guess who's doing graveyard tonight... Oh yeah!

Got paid yesterday and I paid today. LOL Even living cheaply takes money in Los Angeles.

Tried to sleep this afternoon so I could do this shift but only had limited success. I'm going to try to go to the gym after work before crashing. The big question: will I be returning to regular sleep hours or working graveyard again tonight for the same coworker who called in sick? HMMMM

Overall it was an excellent day today.

I had a breakfast to go to this morning and it was a lot of fun. I rode my bike the 6.5 miles there and arrived about 15 minutes early and thought I would try to cool down before going in. I took off my jacket and the heat came off like steam in the brisk morning air, it looked so cool (OK, so I'm a bit strange, you didn't know this?).

I was a bit later than I had planned leaving and I thought I might try catching the Culver City bus to cut on my riding and make up some time. Just as I was riding up to the station, I saw one of their buses turning the corner, I thought I had literally just missed it. Turns out it was just pulling into the station and about 2 minutes later another pulled out to start its run, perfect timing.

Work went well, a bit slow but well. I got home and fell asleep for a bit and was awakened when the kitties decided it was time for their dinner, I am their eternal slave...

Yesterday was both amazing and strange.

I woke up with a mild headache that I attributed to releasing of stress. I am one of those people that tends to hold onto their stress while they are going through things. When it is finally over I pay for it with tension headaches for a day or two but then it seems to be gone... Thank God!

I popped an Advil to help me get through the morning and even managed to meditate pretty well. I really enjoyed it.

At work I finally had my meeting regarding April 15^th and it is now official. I am sometimes completely amazed at how much of a drama queen I can be in my own head. I expected a few difficulties getting through the meeting but it went both really well and I was wished well by all parties involved.

The strange thing was last night when I just could not get tired. I stayed up until about 3:00AM and for the life of me couldn't imagine why. I have been getting plenty of sleep, but not enough that I should be THAT un-tired.

I found out today that a friend had been in some trouble and had been planning on coming over to my house for some help and that they had decided to get another form of help since they thought they were too late for me (that has been since remedied). Fortunately, all is well overall with them and other than a few bumps and bruises on their ego and spirit. What a coincidence.

I didn't make it to the gym today or will I tomorrow, I slept in a bit and the gym closes an hour after I get off work tonight. I would go before work tomorrow, but I already have a scheduled breakfast that I will be racing to work from in the morning. So, I guess Monday will be my next visit, I'll probably go after work so I do not have to get up so early and take my time.

Interesting day, my meeting to announce April 15^th has been delayed a day but there were some leaks via the coffee house route. Oh well...

I'm feeling fine but it has been kind of difficult to keep my positive mindset going, work is work and it is what it is. I'm doing OK but a minor headache has been thrumming in my neck and skull for the last couple of hours. With how I'm feeling, I'm REALLY glad that I did my meditation this morning, it always gives me a charge and I do not even want to think about how draggy I would be if I hadn't.

I have class tonight, looking forward to getting there. No class next week, just a personal reminder.

What an excellent day!

Not that I had that much planned for the day, but I managed to get everything done. I went to breakfast with a friend then checked out a new bank since my old one has decided that using the bank is not good enough, I must pay for the privilege (gotta love the corporate greed -- over $8.50/month).

It was a beautiful day, first one on my day off in quite a while that was sunny and warm enough to lay out for some Sol worship. Then I went to the gym and had an excellent workout, it felt SO good.

Had dinner at this Japanese Teriyaki place called Sarku Japan in the newly redone Fox Hills Mall, oops Westfield Culver City.

Overall things have been great today, yesterday REALLY charged my batteries and I have set a few more things in motion for after the 15^th of April. I really am happier than I have been in SO long. I have light at the end of the tunnel and "the world is my oyster" or so they say.

The Beginnings of Recovery

11:00

OK, so something is up... The Universe is conspiring something and I find I am looking forward to seeing what.

I woke up and decided to wear my Buddha shirt to my breakfast with K and R. Afterward I had planned to go over to the Grind or Library and do some writing. During breakfast I asked R what he was doing today and what route he was planning to take. On a spur of the moment decision I decided to go to Lake Shrine. I LOVE it here!

SoCal in February and I could actually get away with shorts and a T-shirt but I am dressed a bit more appropriately. Am I slipping into respectability?!?

Something has been weighing on my heart for a while and I have been in such a funk and verging on depression. I think I will spend the day relaxing and meditating to see what it is I am missing.

I have chosen a great spot to start with, I'm on the landing between the windmill and the waterfall (I never noticed it before). One of the swans just scared the daylights out of me... I suddenly had him(?) swim by and start flapping his wings like crazy, really changed the mood suddenly, but he seems to have settled down for now.

Just being here makes me feel better, I am not exactly peaceful within but I can feel the peace without and may be able to take some of it home. I miss peace at hime. Maybe I can find what it is that I am missing there, it has gone from sanctuary to something else but I can still feel its potential to be otherwise.

There is a turtle that keeps swimming by, almost as if he's keeping an eye out for me and making sure I am OK.

Just taking the day here will at least charge my batteries a bit, they are nearly empty. I have been so disconnected and just drifting on the currents of my life. I feel like I have been trying to steer currents to a destination of my choosing but I forgot or lost my rudder... I will remedy that!

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17:50 aka 5:50 PM

I took a short break from Lake Shrine at noon to make a Communicator call for my Landmark Series, it was the shortest call I have done so far, but it seemed pretty good. I went back in and walked around the lake and stopped in the chapel to meditate for a while.

While I was meditating, a gentleman who had been meditating in the front of the room got up to leave and I could not help but giggle a bit. He was wearing a leather motorcycle outfit and trying SO hard to be quiet and not disturb others, but the harder he tried the noisier he was.

I took some nice photos of the area and will put them on Facebook when I get home.

I finally left about 2:00 and while grabbing some lunch, had an amazing conversation with my Dad that lasted almost 90 minutes. It was unlike anything we have had in the past, no judgments on either side, just two people having a conversation about whatever came up. Those who read my blog entries are likely aware of the difficulties I have had in the past with my dad, not today.

I stopped of at 212 Pier, probably one of the COOLEST coffee houses I have ever been to, to type up and finish this entry, I am beginning to think I may have picked up a bit of a sunburn today, I have that radient heat feeling you get with an minor burn. Oh well, if that is the cost of such an amazing day, COOL!!!!

I am feeling better than I have in months, I may just be about ready for my meeting at work on Thursday and the repercussions in 60 days. Viva le Spiritgeek!

Note:
This entry was cross-posted to both the Spiritgeek Blog and the Personal Journal.

Well life looks like it may be returning to some sense of normality for a bit. My ill co-worker returns tomorrow and I'm hoping for Friday off. HR and Payroll and I are going to be butting heads over the usual policies and the actual payment of the 6^th and 7^th days and the overtime it is supposed to be. Oh fun fun...

I finally came up with a direction for the Zeitgeist newsletter for February that I not only like but think is much better than the usual Valentines drivel.

Had a good workout at the gym after work. Did the full weight set, but just did not have the energy to do cardio, only did about 10 minutes.

I was thinking about this guy I met last week, I may be about to make a fool of myself, but I think I want to see him again. Not only was he cute as a button but he seemed really sweet. Awe...

Wow, I was exhausted last night.

I got home from work and was supposed to do a tele-conference at 19:30 and after getting ready, had about 15 minutes to kill. Turned on the TV to watch a little B5 and I don't think I made it through the opening credits before I passed out and didn't wake till almost 01:00.

One of my co-workers is out sick with bronchitis(?) so I came in this morning for the day shift. I thought I would take a quick moment to get the journal up to date since I slept through last nights entry.

Yesterday was a OK, but fast workout at the gym. That book I'm reading, "Body for Life", has made me wonder if I might be overdoing some of my workouts. I have been going every other day and doing my weight training each time. I finally got to the section where it goes into the workout details and I noticed that he is suggesting a 4 day rotation on the weights. His layout is weights on say Mon, Wed and Fri with Cardio on Tue, Thr and Sat. So on week one, Mon and Fri would be Upper Body with Wed being Lower Body and Abs and the inverse on the following week.

Looks like I'm working tomorrow as well.

The Grammys are done and now the parties begin. Why am I at work instead of there?

Good day, made a decision today that will seriously change my life in 60 days as far as work goes. Going home in a bit, getting stuff together then going to bed so I can go to the gym before work tomorrow.

I was hoping to get the February Zeitgeist newsletter done so it could go out tomorrow, but it looks like it may be a day or two late. Worst case scenario, I send it out Tuesday night, only 2 days late. Just had a hard time feeling Valentines like... I guess I need some romance in my life.

My latest tweet says it all...

LONG day at work, great workout at the gym, wonderful dinner and all I want is to go to sleep or get laid... LOL

Go guess what happened, I'm going to bed.

It's been a few days and things have been hectic. I have just been a bit negligent and there is no real reason. Just being lazy.

One thing about breaking a resolution, they only stay permanently broke if you want them to. It can always be reinstated and followed through on. So here we go with the second attempt.

Hey, I had to quit smoking three times before it stuck and I still have a craving every once in a while. Occasionally, I will get hit with a craving and see some hot guy smoking and I'm thinking I should french kiss him just to suck the smoke out of his lungs. Kinky and funny, but a touch strange...

Going to bed and getting ready for Grammy weekend...

Well, today has started off as a mixed bag of nuts...

I woke up and made myself an omelette (ham, feta and sauteed tomatoes -- GOOD) and after getting myself together to leave, somewhere I lost 15 minutes and didn't get to stop for coffee on the way... Wah!!!!

Once I got to work, I had a driver that has a reputation for being a bit whiny, we actually keep a pacifier in the desk for him, had some stupid issue and I lost it. As much as I felt terrible about losing it, in a way it was such a relief to get all the crap off my chest.

I'm sure I'm going to apologize for what happened, but I doubt that I will for what was said, it was true, just about as subtle as brick.

The rest of the day was fairly uneventful but long. We have a couple of events going on and tomorrow is going to be nasty. I'm kinda glad that I won't be there...

Two big meetings tomorrow, some Inspire U stuff in the morning and another in WeHo. I also have a training session in the evening at 17:50 so it is going to be a full day. It's also to start raining again, but just for the day.

A beautiful day today but it seems everyone is in a cranky or irritable mood today.

I feeling pretty good, just tired, probably from working late last night, getting to bed as fast as I could feed the kitties then up at 07:00 so I could go to the gym before work. The "bar" in the gym was closed so no protein fix after my workout. Well, I'll be going home soon and can go to bed early.

K wants to get together tomorrow evening and go over some things and we have that meeting in WeHo on Tuesday. Well at least he's driving in the rain Tuesday... he he he

I want to get some writing done tomorrow before work and I'm thinking since I have the time and some Feta, I might make myself an omelette for breakfast, mmm tasty!

5 Personal 12 Week Goals

I'm currently reading Body for Life which asks the following question:

What are the five most important, specific accomplishments you need to make, within the next 12 weeks, for you to be pleased with the progress of your body and life?

My answers in the form of affirmative statements are:

• Within 12 weeks, I will lose 25 pounds.
• Within 12 weeks, I will leave my current job at A*****.
• Within 12 weeks, I will fix Harry Honda.
• Within 12 weeks, I will go on at least six dates.
• Within 12 weeks, I will finish writing "10 Secrets to the Secret".

We finally have some dry weather and it is cold as a witches tit at night, but NO RAIN for a few days then only a day possibly on Tuesday and maybe some more next Saturday.

Thank God, today is supposed to be the last of the rain for a while. I am SO tired of being wet and cold all the time. Last night I had my 1^st in my seminar series and it was awesome, but getting home had it's share of issues... LOL Keep an eye on the Spiritgeek blog for an entry about Mother Nature/The Universe and a playful nature...

Life is constantly getting better and better, little steps or not, get ready for a dry chapter...

Oops, I had no idea it had been so many days since I have been online here and written... Pardon me.

I have been working on the Spiritgeek blog for a few days and I'm also working on the February issue of the Zeitgeist newsletter and that's turning out to be involved. I'm debating on the usual Valentine's Day subject or something better.

Still raining in LA and tomorrow is supposed to be the last day, hope springs eternal.

I start my 10 session seminar series at Landmark tonight and it has stopped raining enough that I might make it there dry. Just got a ride from one of the drivers -- no bus tonight!!!!

Well, I managed to survive day 1 of the rain in Los Angeles, 4 more days to go with Thursday being the worst of the storms. LA gets weather, who would have guessed...

Had a mellow day at work and it was nice... The days after an event are over are when everyone takes a chill pill and all the crap of the last few days blows over. Events, award shows in particular can be REAL stressful; how much is deserved and how much is just the way people do things is another question.

I was up late last night due to the Golden Globes, so I decided not to get up as usual and go to the gym before work and I figured I'm off tomorrow so I went after work. I don't know why, but I'm finding that the free-weights workout stuff is SERIOUSLY making me enjoy going to the gym more. Steve and I had talked about adding them maybe one night a week, but I wanted to do it again.

I feel SO good about myself and it seems to be making headway in my transformations of my body. I physically feel great and, to be honest, it seems to make me AMAZINGLY horny... LOL

As much as I have enjoyed the physical benefits of my diet and exercise regime, it has also been enhancing my meditations and some of my writing. "10 Secrets to the Secret" is going to get major attention tomorrow and I may have the first section ready to go to the editor shortly. Now if I can just handle the corrections... ;-P

Going to feed the kitties and crash, I have my regular breakfast meeting tomorrow morning and I want to get in some meditation in before I go. I wouldn't mind getting in a good hour before I have to go.

Life truly is awesome, the bumps are not so bad when they get put into proper perspective.

I will be so glad when the award show season is over, Los Angeles becomes such a bunch of morons when it comes to thinking things through and the egos EXPLODE!

Went to the gym after work and had an amazing workout. I ran into my friend Steve who once promised to give me some tips and help me add some free-weights to my workout. Today ended up being the day and he showed me some great stuff and I apparently did pretty well as he seemed to be reasonably impressed. cool!

Afterwards, I went to grab something for dinner and immediately after taking the first byte, it turned into a great white having a feeding frenzy, ack! Good thing I made it a high-protein meal...

While I was on the elliptical, I kept hearing the voice of my crack dealer, not the illegal one, but my brittle mistress. I hope all is well.

I've got a couple of errands to do then I'm going to bed, I might feed the cats first... It will keep me from bleeding... ;-)

Good day, went REALLY fast and I did a quick computer job while I was at work. COOL!!!!

Going to run home and crash immediately, I have to be back @ 07:00 tomorrow morning. Good thing that I get off at 19:00 tonight and not 23:30 as I used to.

My new affirmation for the day has been: "Money is attracted to me like a lover, it cannot stay away from me." Cool and has had me in a great mood all day.

I never did get a chance to eat my salad I brought for dinner, oops, guess I'll just have top eat it tomorrow, but I get off work @ 15:30 so I might save it for Sunday instead... We'll see.

Night!

I have been so busy with the latest blog entry, I've written 3 versions and hate all 3. It's crazy personal and if I'm not careful, likely to come back and bite me in the ass. I'm trying to rewrite it again and make it a bit more general, not quite so personal, that will help a bit I think.

They say that the weather is supposed to change Sunday evening and rain anywhere from 6 to 20 inches over the next week, fun biking!!!

Well, off to bed and back to it tomorrow.

It's been a good day, a little rain this morning, some work on catching up the blogs and "10 Secrets to the Secret" along with some Babylon 5 for entertainment.

Yesterday, I went shopping around Santa Monica and stopped by Thunderbolt Spiritual Books, I haven't been in there for a while, I had forgotten how nice it is. While I was there I stumbled across a CD called "Theta Transport" by Tommy Brunjes. It reminds me of Dick Sutphen's "Alpha & Theta Waves" and "Hypnotic OM" disks except the music is better...

K & R came over last night and we had a little party, a little Brandy and too much गांजा. K & R meant it as a joke but they hit a raw nerve and one of my greatest fears. I'm going to write a blog entry about it shortly, but in some ways, I have NEVER been so scared, not in what they did but in what I sometimes see and fear for the future. Sounds stupid, but it's something I have been seeing in dreams since I was a kid and I don't want it to happen, I want to find a way to avoid it.

Well, I need to pack my gym stuff for tomorrow as well as make a sandwich for lunch, the cats would like their box cleaned and then I'm going to bed. I will be able to read before I turn the lights out, that will be nice.

Gorgeous day today, mid-70's and lightly cloudy and just absolutely fabulous!!!

I'm having a great day and it is my Friday so in a few short hours, four if I stay till the end, I'm out of here for two days. (I'm finishing this entry later) I left early and had a lovely dinner.

The day did get a little odder as it went on. One of the guys I worked with intorduced me to some YouTube videos where they take Music Videos and dub them with new lyrics talking about the video, here's one for example; Pat Benatar's "Love is a Battlefield". One of the ones I stumbled across was Billy Idol doing "Dancing With Myself" and when I went home, I picked an episode of "Glee" from the DVR to watch and it had the same song being performed. There were several little incidences of coincidence that happened through the day.

I went to the gym this morning and I think I may have overdone things a bit as I've been sore all day, but it's good

It's a beautiful day in SoCal, mid 70's and didn't even need my jacket on the ride to work this morning. A pretty mellow day at work and having a good time overall.

I have been doing some self-medication that has involved large quantities of food, particularly late at night after I get home from work. That usually means I'm either smoking the गांजा too much or I am depressed. I have been kind of avoiding the गांजा for two reasons; 1) most of the stuff out there now days is WAY to strong for my taste (read: 1 hit and I'm a zombie for the evening) and 2) I'm having enough allergy issues with my throat without trashing it out more with smoking.

I've been in a bit of a funk lately, but I don't think of it as depression. Just glad the holidays are over and a new year of possibilities is upon us and I'm hoping for a better year than last.

I knew it was going to be slow today, so I was planning on working on the "10 Secrets to the Secret" but wouldn't you know, I left the drive sitting next to the laptop in the living room. Let's hope the cats don't find it and turn it into a toy to be lost for eternity.

As soon as I finish this entry, I think I'll try to either get a head-start on the February Zeitgeist Newsletter or I'll work on a regular blog entry.

Ran across this today and HAD to add it so I can find it again. I've loved "Adagio for Strings" since I first heard it in "Platoon" and DJ Tiesto does an excellent version.

One of those days at work. Like most jobs, dispatching usually breaks down into one of two types of days, busy or dead. Today ended up being pretty kick back for the most part and just had one thing after another all day until the crescendo that is going to get a driver bar-b-qued!

I'm not planning on doing anything particularly drastic, something simple, honey-tomato glaze and some mild seasoning to taste. The guest of honor (read main course) is a little scrawny so place your orders early.

Did a computer job last night and went back to finish it this morning, everything went well, I swear I could make a very good living following the client's grandson and fixing the viruses that he gets every time he visits...

Note to self, when you go to the gym on Saturday, you cannot go early since the gym doesn't open until 8 AM. Had a "blast" sitting in front for 30 minutes this morning, but I did get to do some reading.

I'm tired and getting ready for bed, after I do the cat box, they will be happy...

Yesterday was a complete blast at work, the BCS game made work a lot of fun. And before you ask, I don't care who played or won.

Kinda draggy all day and I have to stop by a driver's house and fix his wife's computer. I really wish they would keep the grandson off, I get to do a virus hunt after nearly every visit. Grampa is going to kill him sooner or later...

My allergies are finally taking a chill, I didn't take anything today and my nose is nearly back to normal.

Tried to get some writing done today, no luck, but tomorrow has promise... Going to the gym before work then if it is slow enough I can try to write during work, tough but can be done.

Getting out of here in less than 10 minutes so I'll make this short. L8r

Good day today, slept in a bit and ran a few errands. Finally made it to get the face cleanser I've been using, the other tube must have been a sample of something,as the other container is SO more than double the size.

Been kinda draggy, my sinuses are drying slowly but the throat is still a bit off. Fortunately I still have my voice or I would have a problem. Going to bed and going to do the gym tomorrow.

I feel like something is about to happen, I don't know what, but something seems a bit out of sorts. I'm curious to see what it is.

Need to finish the first 4 chapters of "10 Secrets to the Secret" so I can mail them off to be proofed. It's pretty tough to write a book. I've also had some ideas for "The Executioner's Confession" that should work well. I find my humor comes across with Rebecca more than the Secrets book. Working on that, but the people who have read the early stages seem to like it, maybe I'm just being to tough on myself.

Well yesterday ended with a bang. A friend called me at work and needed some one-on-one time and I was happy to help out...

Once again I got to have a face-to-face meeting with just how much we can persecute ourselves when there is no fault of our own. I also received a great lesson in what Landmark would call "Strong Suits" and "rackets".

I wanted to get some writing done so after my friend left this morning, I went for coffee and work on the laptop. I just finished part 2 of what was supposed to be a blurb, guess that plan is moot...

The blog entry (part 1) and (part 2)

The sinuses have mellowed for the most part, but still an issue and my voice sounds like Froggy from the Our Gang films.

Going to grab some dinner then either try to get some work on the book done or go to bed early to make up for last night. Of course I REALLY need to get laundry done tomorrow as well as get a haircut.

Good day overall!

Got home from work yesterday and was unconscious before I knew what hit me. I fell asleep before the 2^nd story made it on TMZ, that's tired.

It has been a beautiful day today, the temps have been in the 70's and there has been a light breeze blowing and you would never know that it was January, not even in LA. The only problem with it is that a mild Santa Ana condition is carrying dust or pollen and my sinuses have been running a marathon all day, well at least I know they are working.

I'm a huge fan of neti-pots and mine has been working double shifts in an attempt to cut the sneezing down, doing better but if I don't dry out soon you might want to invest in Kleenex stock.

I am looking forward to going to the gym in the morning, I may be a bit sore ofter, but over all I feel better for having gone and I am loving the improvements in the body. Not only have I lost 40 lbs but I am reshaping the body and for the first time in my life, I'm actually REALLY liking what I see when I look in a mirror.

Sue gave me a Rune reading after work and she didn't really tell me anything that I didn't already know. I had one flip on it's own while I was shuffling and she said it meant that I had been kind of stagnant, not regressing, but not moving forward either. Then she actually started a New Years reading...

When I pulled the actual 5 for my reading, basically she said (1) I am needing to prepare my weapons for my journey. (2) There are some programming, cultural and such that I need to become aware of and determine which to keep or to drop. (3) I have some old family (biological or not) issues that I need to deal with and get beyond, I am conflicted regarding this relationship. (4) I also need to either deal with some side projects/distractions, shit or get off the pot. (5) The continuation of my path will require some patience as the fruiting will take about a year. Not bad, we'll see what comes in the new year.

Happy New Year...

I finished and sent out the newsletter, awesome!  Good newsletter and on time!

Decided to treat myself to breakfast over at Pepy's Galley and had the Greek Omelet.  Not sure what it is about that thing that I'm addicted to, but I suspect it's the feta cheese...

Getting ready to go to work and still have absolutely no idea where I'm going to get some coffee.  Every place that I've called has been closed, so it looks like I might be destined for Starbucks today, not great, but it will do.

Birdie and Bella and seem to be getting more comfortable at home.  Birdie likes it when I meditate and Bella likes it when I practice Reiki and other energy manipulations, how funny...  I'm beginning to see why cats have been called "familiars" for so long.

I'm not real big on making New Years Resolutions, but if I were to make one, it would be to pursue my spiritual side as the top priority.  It's in my practice and teaching that I truly find my joy and peace.